Bismillahirahmanirahim...

The heart. 
Sometimes its on the path so strong.
 A piece of flesh, yet it controls the whole body. 
So times it focus too much on this wordly life, 
which turns it both to a tired and exhausted heart.

So I give it up to you my Lord. 
Turn this heart to a lover of the Deen, 
to a worker of the next life, 
to a caring heart with pure intentions 
and to heart that never gets tired of coming closer to You,

 Ameen Ya Allah.

I miss to put my head on the sajaddah in the middle of the night.
I miss to talk to You.
I miss to crying in front of you,
I miss.

Forgive me Ya Allah.
For every prayer I had something other than You on my mind. 
For every time I was ungrateful for my blessings. 
For every time I failed to Praise You. 
For every moment I could have done more in Your Name and didn’t. 

I promise to try harder.
For me.
For my husband.
For my kids,

A phase.

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Never compare your marriage to the ones you see in movies. 

They’re written by screenwriters, yours is written by ALLAH.

Like every normal girl, I was excited about marriage right from my childhood days.

I never thought beyond the time that I would spend happily with my spouse.

Alhamdulillah. 

But today when I am married, I realize that marriage is not all roses.

It’s not just about being with your beloved and having a gala time. 

There is so much more to it. 

It comes with its own share of responsibilities, duties, sacrifices and compromises.

Yet, 

I'm so in love with this marriage. 

Thank you dear families and people who gave us green light to get knowing each other since the day we met. 

Alhamdulillah.

Marriage for me is a promise you made to yourself. 

Don’t go into a marriage in search of happiness. 

Marriage isn’t the place to find happiness. 

Marriage is struggles and hardship and difficulties, for it we become stronger, and closer to Allah azza wajal. 

InshaALLAH.

Marriage in Islam completes half of your deen. 

Do not be swayed by good looks or money as these will come and go.

Learn and walk in deen together. 

Go in a marriage with the purpose in getting closer to ALLAH .

InshaALLAH it will be a blessed marriage.

AME3N.

I'm a woman  who always wanted to get into perfect marriage which I can perform salah together, raise our hand asking forgiveness from HIM together, reciting Quran together, holding hands together with dzikir come out from our mouth.

ALLAHU...  I really wanted this for the rest of my life.

But, ALLAH's plan is the best. HE send us apart for a while. He wanted us to taste the test from Him for it we become thankful for every nikmah HE gives us. 

InshaALLAH,

with Qudrat He gives me,

I will try to survive until some-time-we-don't-even-know-when.

For sake of us and our future caliph. 

AME3N.

The Happiness..

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

My dearest husband,

Alhamdulillah. we are now married!

Officially I am a wife to Khairul Fikri Fathul Rahman.

Dear you,

My expectations are not of a princess. I do not need all the riches of the world. All I ask is that you are rich with knowledge of deen. Please do not feel threatened by statuses and certificates. I pray that you’ll be my other half who will help me answer our children’s’ questions when I have no idea what to say. I pray you be there to finish my sentences and teach me where I am lacking, for I know  I am.

I do not expect you to be as perfect as our Prophets, I will be grateful enough you becoming the sultan of my eyes. And now we are meant for each other, and I am the lucky woman ALLAH swt created for you, then I'm so sure ALLAH swt will bring our hearts together and make us fall in love with HIS mercy. How can I expect someone handsome and good looking? when I'm just only an awkward and clumsy sometimes annoying woman so. An ordinary wife, yes I am. InsyaALLAH with your dua', I will be an extra ordinary wife to you. Ame3n. 

We both just entered the new life which is the most easiest way to collect pahala'. I have completed your half deen, and so you. Alhamdulillah. And every single day,  I pray that you are always in the best of health, under ALLAH’s protection and baraqah, no matter how far we apart. Although there is no way to determine how and when will I come back to you as a fully wife, who are always be by your side. Taking care of all you. And staying together under one roof. ALLAHU.. This is heartbreaking to think back. 

Husband, my prayers are always with you, so that one day we will be together under the best of circumstances. InsyaALLAH..

♥♥♥

Love Her.

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

To my future husband (with ALLAH's willing),

Yes, YOU..

♥ Love her,

when she “pushes” you to pray. She wants to be with you in Jannah (Paradise).



.



♥ Love her,

hen she is jealous. Out of all the men she can have, she chose you



♥ Love her,

when she has annoying little habits that drives you nuts. You have them too.



♥ Love her,

when her cooking is bad. She tries.



♥ Love her,

when she asks if she looks fat. Your opinion counts, so tell her she’s beautiful.



♥ Love her,

when she looks beautiful. She’s yours so appreciate her.



♥ Love her,

when she spends hours to get ready. She only wants to look her best for you.



♥ Love her,

when she buys you gifts you don’t like. Smile and tell her it’s what you’ve always wanted.



♥ Love her,

when she cries for absolutely nothing. Don’t ask, tell her its going to be okay



♥ Love her,

when she suffers from PMS. Buy chocolate, rub her feet and back and just chat to her.

♥ Love her,

when she tells you how to drive. She only wants you to be safe.



♥ Love her,

when she argues. She only wants to make things right for both



♥ Love her,

She is yours. You don’t need any other special reason!!!!



The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) advised concerning the woman:



• Treat the women well.



• The best of you are those who are the best in the treatment of their wives.

and the time will come InsyaALLAH..

Tuhan sudah pilih kita. From YOU.

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

ALLAH..

If you’re still listening to me despite my shortcomings and many sins, 

I want to ask you one thing: 

Make me better.

Make me better than the person I am right now,

Make me better than the person I want to be, 

Make me better than the people I aspire to be like. 

I’ve spent too long being okay with just being okay, Rabb. 

I know you aren’t finished with me yet.

Not even single.

Kan?

LIVING FAR FROM EVERYBODY YOU LOVE.

It was Qadr. It was meant to happen. No ‘if’s. It was gonna happen anyway. 

It was suppose to happen exactly like that because ALLAH SWT decreed like so. 

Just accept it. 

It was for the best InshaaALLAH, even if you cannot see or understand it.

InshaALLAH.

"la qad kholaqna al-insaana fii ahsani taqwim"

"Kami telah menciptakan manusia dengan sebaik-baik penciptaan"